Hello again
I am a hypocrite. As I am and have been a proponent of no drugs. And here I am taking medication for the last 6 years. Anti-depressant medication and 5 different types at once.
This did not happen me deciding to take myself off of these drugs. It happened by complete accident. I ran out. And could not get anymore advances from the drug store. This meaning I would have to go to the Doctor's office. Sit for, anywhere from 1-2 hours before even moving into to the next waiting room, which I would of had to wait an additional 10-30 minutes. And then after all of this waiting I would only be able to see the Doctor for, maybe 10 minutes.
I am unwilling to be late to see mom.
Now I am experiencing withdrawals, and they are not as bad as I thought it was going to be. As the Doctor's have always told me, not to stop abruptly as it may kill you.
Now I have been singing like crazy to mom. And I have even gone out their and let my voice go and use what I call, my opera voice. I have almost lost my voice. As I cannot sing this way, because I am a smoker.
I really need to quit smoking; As I really liked the sound of my roaring voice. I have always been afraid of letting go and just doing it. I would not need a microphone, as my voice carry's.
I have now added washing mom's hair to the list. And will be doing this every other day. Mom's hair is already becoming fuller/
Look I am extremely picky about my hair and have always been. I use a certain shampoo and women love my hair. They want to touch it. Even out in public.
So I decided since I am so picky about my hair I will be just as picky about mom's hair. As I only want the best for mom. And mom deserves to look as good as she can/
Well I have more to write, but not tonight. As I have to keep rested. So I don't have anymore Black outs. Which still continue. Not as long though and I have yet to do anything stupid, while having a Black out.
I really have to go now.
GOD bless and good night
Kris
